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April 26, 2013

The Porn Drug


I am a lust addict. Which is more broad than a porn addict and more prevalent. Even before viewing pornography the first time I sought female attention to an extreme because it was extremely lacking. Everytime a girl would smile at me or talk to me I would get a lust hit. I loved getting hugs in high school. I used to count the amount I would get each day. It was like a personal goal to get a higher number. Those were my lust hits. They were like my drug that would help ease the pain of life. I can now relate to alcoholics and drug addicts. They are just using their drug as self-medication and a coping mechanism. I too have turned to pornography as my drug. I am no different than them. Which is why I think that porn addiction is so prevalent in LDS culture. We cannot self-medicate through drugs and alcohol. They are just too open and we do not want to be judged. However, pornography is secret. Where only the person knows. Thus allowing for secrecy from peers. In addition, the amount is so much greater. If I wanted to self-medicate with beer or drugs I would have to go to the store or some illegal place to get them. However the porn drug is accessible everywhere and anywhere in the world. Beer or drugs are expensive. Porn is free. Anywhere in the entire world you can find almost unlimited porn in increasing amounts. There is never an end. That is why we must overcome the problem at the root. Why do we self-medicate using pornography? And what else can I do to replace my coping mechanism of pornography with something healthy and less harmful spiritually and physically?